Today is my 3rd day on the compound, it is my 6th day in Indonesia. If there is one thing that I have really begun to "discover" it is really what it means to live in the moment. As I have spent time here I have caught myself a number of times in a strange place. It is a place where everything in me is pushing forward to the next thing, that I cannot wait to speed through this just so that I can see what is going to happen; yet, at the same time everything in me wants to stop and never leave, I want to stay in the car and never actually get there, once I am there I never want to get back in. I want to stay in the store I am in, but I cannot wait to see the store down the street. Even now, though I cannot wait to see what will happen when I move on, I am so enjoying the sensation of writing this blog that I never want to leave.
I believe that this is truly living in the moment. It is a place of no fear for the future, but still being content where you are, no fear of being left behind. It is utter peace with who you are, and what you are doing, and at the same time a longing to better yourself through experience and understanding. There are so many things that I have yet to learn, and I am full of the expectancy of learning them, but not at all anxious. This is a place that I don't think that I have ever been before. All that I can do now is thank God for His amazing grace and guidance in bringing me here, and say that I cannot wait to see what He will do next.
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