Honestly...

The past few blogs have mostly just been updates about what is going on, but not really about where my heart is really at in all of this, so today I decided to tell you honestly. 

I know that I have said that I am very happy to be back here in Indonesia, but today I really proved that to myself. We went to church this morning, and it was a nice surprise to see that they put the English translation up on the overhead with the songs. I was able to greet most of the friends that I had not greeted yet, and then my friend Rolly and I went around Salatiga to hang out for a while. We had good conversation, and I was able to buy some things I wanted. Simple morning. Not much happening. I found myself not only smiling, but every time I got on the motorcycle to go somewhere else I felt like I was a little kid playing a game. I looked around and was just filled with this overwhelming since of how happy I was, and then I remembered that in September I will begin school. I cannot believe that I actually get to learn Indonesian!!! I am so excited. I feel like if I could pick a life, any life, that this is the one that I would have picked. The more I get back into the flow of things here the more I am really enjoying it. 

It is not only that I love the country, but it is also that I feel like I have a purpose, that I am working and doing something that is important. When I was on my way here from Maui I had a one hour layover in Tokyo. Not a big deal, I didn't think much of it, but while I was sitting in the airport God gave me a vision about what I am going to be doing here. I don't really want to share it right now, I am still in the process of praying about it and seeing how it will all fit...plus it is a lot bigger than me, so it is kind of intimidating; I will tell you though, that it fits in with all that I have been doing here up until now, and it really gives me a long term goal while I am here. It is always nice to have something to look forward to. Yesterday I was able to sit and listen to the students sing and play the guitar for about an hour, and I could not help but realize what a blessing it was. I love these kids so much. I am so blessed. I don't feel that I can adequately tell you what is in my heart to say, except to say that our God is so good, He is so faithful, and He always gives the best for His loved ones. I don't know how everything will work out. I don't know what will happen tomorrow, but I know that I am blessed, and happy. I feel loved, and I feel beautiful, I feel important, and I feel humbled. Honestly.