I've been thinking a lot about home this week, I know that I still have a lot more time before I go home, but at the same time, with every day that day gets closer. I know that God has all in His hand, and His plan, and His timing, and that His plan is the best one...but I have also been meditating on the scripture Proverbs 16:9 "A mans heart plans his way, but the Lord directs His steps." How true this is. I may plan my way, but it is Him that gets it moving...at the same time, while the Lord is ultimately in charge, we must actively participate in the planning of our lives. I have been here learning Indonesian, learning about the culture, working out relationships and making connections, and I am waiting to see what God will do; the only difficulty is beginning to turn my heart home and yet still give it all that I have while I am here; it's the uncertainty that kills.
I remember when I went home last year (it has been over a year now y'all, crazy!) and how I was so happy to see everyone, but how I just missed Indonesia so much, how I missed the kids, the friends, everything, and honestly I am scared that that is going to happen again. I guess this is kind of an emotional blog today, and it's not going to be very long, but I wanted to stop by and say hi, I also thought I could send you a prayer request. So, please pray that I get some direction, and that I am able to gracefully transition when the time comes, even if it's not for a while. I love you all dearly.
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